"It was like a nightmare that could make you scream, 'cause nobody wants to die too fast."
Jean's eyes were wide in horror as he held the girl in his arms. Her (e/c) eyes were opened halfway, showing their now dull and lifeless color. Her (h/l) (h/c) hair blew slightly with the soft gentle wind that drifted through the air. Her lower half was covered in blood; her blood, that had been painfully forced out of her insides by the giant monster that now lay dead on the ground. A titan.
He slowly fell to his knees, holding her tighter against him as his body began to tremble. Again, again he had lost somebody dear to him. But this time, it was the girl he loved, cared for most. His reason to live, his sunshine. It was gone, taken away leaving nothing but darkness. Throwing his head back, he let out a cry that could be heard by all who roamed by; not even caring if titans were among them.
Tears streamed from his eyes as he held her close, burying his face in the crook of her slim, fragile neck. The girl; the one who lay dead in his arms...was you. ______ _____ and the love of Jean's life.
Just hours before he had been talking to you, laughing, and smiling. But now here you were, lifeless and flimsy like a rag doll. Damn those titans.. Damn them..
"What is it ______?"
"If I ever die out there...I want you to introduce yourself to my parents when we get back, alright?" Jean looked up from his book, staring at you as you gazed out of the window. He sat up from being in a supine position. He sighed and ran a hand through his hair.
"Don't say things like that ______. You won't die out there...not if I can help it.."he muttered. You tear your gaze away from the window and over to him.
"Jean..dont make a promise you can't keep. Any one of us could die tomorrow or even tonight from those...things. But make a promise you can. Introduce yourself to my parents."You tell him.
"Why though _______?"he asked.
"To prove that I had love and was happy while serving the military. That I didn't just go out and get killed by titans. I laughed, a loved..with you."You tell him. Jean's face dusted with the light shade of pink and he looked to the side, sighing.
"Alright I promise..but you're not gonna die, alright? So make me a promise and stop talking like you are."he said, standing and walking over to you. You turned as he did, standing face to face with the white haired man before you. He slowly reached out and wrapped his strong arms around you, pulling you close against him so he could rest his chin atop of your head. "I'd lose my mind if I lost you....so..try your best not to die..for me."
You smiled softly and nodded, leaning against him.
"I'll try..as long as you do.."
"Jean!! Jean help me!"
"_______! I'm coming!!!" Jean's heart thumped loudly at the cry of his beloved. He was going as fast as his gear could carry him. He gasped, watching in horror as he saw you, struggling in the grasp of a titan that was raising you to it's mouth. "Noooo!! You son of a bitch!!" he screamed, lunching forward and slicing the nape of the neck of the monster.
However, the titan had already put you in it's mouth and chomped down, causing blood to splatter out your mouth, stomach and legs as it's teeth crushed you. You slid out of it's gaping mouth as it fell to the ground dead, letting Jean catch you and carry you to a rooftop for safety.
There you laid, in his arms, coughing, blood seeping from your mouth and stomach, onto Jean's arms and hands. His light brown eyes were wide in horror and disbelief.
"______..no you can't..! You'll be alright once I get you over the wall!"he cried. Though, Jean knew it was too late. Hardly anyone ever survives wounds like this from titans. You look up at him and raise your hand slowly to his cheek.
"Don't forget your promise Jean..Thank you...for everything..."you whispered, before letting your arm drop and avert your eyes towards the sky. The grey sky, past Jean, past the wall. Slowly, you felt your soul depart from your body as you took your last breath.
Jean gasped and fell to his knees slowly.
"No...no..______..Please..please don't leave me..Please don't do this! I need you! I love you! Please..."But Jean's cries fell on deaf ears. You were gone, and he was again without his best friend. Somebody that understood him and cared about him. He closed his eyes tightly, letting images of Marco flood his mind. It was just like that time.
His eyes, though closed, streamed tears down onto your face, merging with the blood that stained your lips. His own body trembled as he stood once more, still carrying you and headed back up the wall where the others who made it awaited.
There, was Connie, a friend of Jean who's eyes widened at the sight of your corpse.
"Oh god...No..not...her too...."He mumbled. Jean didn't say a word to Conner; didn't even acknowledge him as he walked past, setting you down with the other corpses of fallen soldiers.
Hours later, all remaining scouts made it up the wall and were heading back to the town where people awaited their return. Jean kept his gaze on the ground as he followed in line with the other cadets. His clothes were still stained with the blood of his beloved. Many people frowned at the sight of the worn out, defeated, and traumatized soldiers. Some spoke out, but Jean didn't acknowledge any of them. Not until he heard one father cry out:
"My daughter! Where is my daughter?! She was in this regiment! Her name's ________! Where is she?!"He cried. Jean's eyes widened and he stopped in place, looking over at the man who was accompanied by the woman who looked like an older version of yourself. "What has happened to our daughter?!"
"Introduce yourself to my parents...I want them to know that I loved and laughed..."
Your voice echoed in Jean's man as he turned and began his way over to them. Seeing the approaching soldier, the man turned and latched on to Jean's jacket.
"Please sir! You must know my daughter! Tell me...where is she?"he asked. Jean felt his whole body tremble as he stared back at the man before him.
"She...I...I knew your daughter.."He said. The man's eyes widened.
"Really? Where is she?! I do not see her with you!"He stated. Jean looked down.
"Thats because she...She's gone.."Jean informed the couple, looking to the side. The man stared at Jean and the woman covered her mouth quickly before falling to her knees and covering her mouth, screaming into it.
"No! My baby! God why?! Why?!"She cried. The sound of your mother made Jean's heart ache as he looked down at her.
"I'm sorry ma'am.."He mumbled, a single tear falling from his own eye. The father leaned down, picking up his wife and holding her close.
"Dear god why.."he mumbled.
"She wanted me to introduce myself to you guys before she passed though."Jean spoke up though his voice was cracking. The mother looked up at him but said nothing through her tears. "My name is Jean..Jean Kirschtein...and I was in love with your daughter."
"She wanted me to tell you that. I loved her very much. She made me promise that if she died, I would introduce myself to you guys and tell her that she did not just die at the hands of a titan. Before that she laughed, and loved and was happy..smiling up to her death and I...I will carry the burden of her death on my shoulders for the rest of my life!"he blurted, dropping to his knees before the parents. His head was hung in shame and his eyes were now streaming tears that he could not stop. "I didn't get there in time! I couldn't save her! I'm sorry! I'm too blame!"
Your parents looked at one another before leaning down and placing each of their hands on Jean's shoulders.
"Thank you...for making our daughter happy until she departed from this world. Do not blame yourself.."Your mother said, tears still falling form her eyes. Jean looked up at her then down.
"I'm sorry....so sorry.."
"They came like a nightmare that could make you scream, 'cause nobody wants to die too fast. That wretched day of grief is so strange to me. I could see your face, I could hear your voice..."
Jean laid on his bed, gazing up at the ceiling above as his brain replayed memories of you and him together, how you first met and how you came to be.
"Ouch that's hot! Hey girl! What are you doing?!"
"S-sorry..I didn't mean to..I'm just...really nervous I guess..."
"Well you should be more careful and learn to calm your nerves. Best to think about living instead of a death that awaits you by those titans.."
"Yeah..guess you're right..thanks..I'm _______ by the way.."
Jean smiled at the familiar memory and closed his eyes, letting a last tear fall from his eye as he drifted to sleep where you awaited in his dreams.
"Goodnight my love...goodnight..and goodbye."
Remembering the day we met, rips my heart to shreds 'cause nobody should have to die that fast...